lalas. quite a no. of days nvr blog lerr. =x

hmmm. had dinner outside last nite. *yumms. damn full lorr. =)) thnks for sendin me to der interchange.. =)) and i had a super fast and major moodswing ytd.. lalas.. sze shld understand wat.. lols.x)

gees. hmmm. life is juz goin on as usual.. at 1st i juz couldnt get use to everythg.. i even tried to skip skool.. and i realised dat it was of no use.. cuz i cant possibly skip skool forever.. so yup, i juz tried to take things easy.. tried to think of der positive side.. and not to tink too much.. and somehow, i've succeeded. =))

thnks to all dose who stayed by me..

shermin, yingning, natasha and naix- thanks for cheerin me up in klaz..

dewi- thanks for being dere for me and always makin me luff.=)

deborah- thanks for not leavin me. u are always dere when i need some1.. muacks.

szehui & jesse- thanks for trustin me despite all der rumours. both of ur laughters cheers me up. =)

lil turtle- thanks for not misunderstandin me.. and oso for everythg..=)

ck- thanks for comfortin me.. and im stronger gurl now. =)

and lastly,
cheefun- hmm. i duno wat to say. i owe you lots of thanks.. in short, thanks for being dere for me and correctin my faults. =))

and to all dose hu cared for me but i left your names out. THANKS

yup. im grateful to all der ppl i've mentioned above.. oh ya. i oso nid to say thnks to dat person hu BACKSTABBED me. although i hate you to der core, but i ought to thnk you cuz w/o you, dere's noway i can grow stronger. you oso make me realised how wrong am i in trustin you AGAIN.. im juz being dumb. dere'll nvr be a day dat i'll trust you again. i'll hate you till der day i die. i'll nvr forget you. and im serious. =)

hais i haf nth to say.. and i've finally came to realise sth..

I`m a damn bloody farked up bitch..

i didnt try to feel how dey feel when dey asked me over again ang again but i rejected.. at dat point of time i only noe how to enjoy myself and i totally forgot how dey feel.. im really sorry.. i noe now no matter wat i say it might be useless.. but im reali sorry.. and i shld have listen to others.. im too stubborn.. i care bout guys too much and i neglected my frens' feelings.. i noe u guys gimme chance but i didnt treasure it.. i noe u made you guys disappointed.. once again, im reali sry.. i noe its hard or mayb impossible to ask u guys for another chance.. but i reali hope i can haf another chance, if dere is, i swear dat i wont make dat stupic mistake again.. but even if dere isnt, i wont blame u guys.. im at fault..

lalas. quite a no. of days nvr blogg lerr. but life still goes on.. =))

nth to say bout der days b4.. today went for pioneerin course.. lalas. its fun larr i can say.. we use ropes and poles to make a ladder.. it was fun.. i lurfe it.. =)) and oso der map readin part.. it was enjoyable lar. ive learn quite a no. of things today. =))

lalas. thnks.. u've made my day.. =) im so happy now.. lalas..

i'll be a strong gurl from now..
im gonna prove ppl wrong..
no matter wat happens, no more tears for dem anymore..
i noe i can do it. and i will.. =)

boring boring boring.

ahhhh. im so sleepy in class..
so boring lorr. sad eh. i juz cant concentrate.
enoch fell off der chair 3 times today. lalas.
iwonder how many times tml.. =s

after skool went naix' hse.
we went dere to study but end up, we didnt study much.. lalas.
except jesse. despite all der destractions,
she manage to get sth into her head.. lols.

things are turnin bad.. why?
why always at dis point of time?
i haf no idea too. but it seems serious..
not only us.. alot of others too..
i duno how.. i wanna try to make thgs good.
but im afraid i might make it worst..
worst den how it is now.. isit me again?
im not sure.. but i tink so..

*yawns.

sians 1st day of skool. lalas.
dun feel like goin skool tml larr.
lessons are so borin.. damnit.
lalas. but i simply lurfe pe today.
muackks. mysweetiepie. lalas.

i duno y but i juz feel some tension.
i duno wat u mean by dat sentence. hais.

went J8 after skool.. wif jesse, mp, sze.
we had long and fun tok. lalas.
im so happy today. muacks.

lalas. cheesycake and seetiepie. muackks.
im contented alr. juz lidat. lalas.

lalas. wat shld i..?
hmmm. im so happy for my son.. lalas. =))

hmm. i duno.
am i reali blushin? im not sure eh.
i juz feel a lil feverish. =x
lalas. im juz happy larr.
dun care der reason.

lalas. my daughter in law. muackks.

lalas.. firstly,
Happy Birthday Cheefun! x))
hahas. son, got touched anot? told u to belief me is you dun wan derr. xp

hmm. slept at 2 last nite..
stayed up to prepare some stuff..
and thnks choon keong for sacrificin ur sleepin time to bring us dere today.. =))
sze, colleen and me.
lalas. we suprised cheefun. x))

den we went causeway point walk walk.
lalas. we had lotsa fun..
kiddy palace and popular. lalalas. gees.
thnks guys. u guys made my day. =D

im juz simply happy today.
it covers up der unhappy things which happened ytd.=)

*=((

lalas. went for emaths remedial..
hmmm. its borin larr.
watse time only lorr.
machiam chit chat session lidat.. lols.
hmm.. had a nice tok wif colleen. =))

went to work after.
totally no mood to work. lucky sher was dere.
thanks gurl.. =))

yup. found out sth today..
i duno wat to say.. shld i smile or shld i cry?
shld i be happy or shld i be sad? i duno..
i mean its like.. hais..
it's reali a DREAM after all..

on der way home, alot of thgs flashed thru my mind..
lookin at der fone, waitin for ur msg..
i duno why.. tears juz rolled down my cheeks.
yup. somehow, i tink im still so un-important to you.

* grins.

lalas. went town wif sze, zhen & drey today..
went searchin for sth. lalas.
a secret. gees.. dun tell u wat. =p
but we had a difficult time lookin for it.
my legs are achin ehh. lols.

after dat zhen, sze and me went amk.
we wanted to eat ice kachang.
but too bad der stall not open.=(
den we sat down and chat for a while. =))

had a tirin but great day. lalas.
lurfe ya gurls. muacks. =x

someone finally told me der truth..
no harm rite? im still down here bloggin.. lols.
but im juz puzzled.. why cant u juz gid him and u a chance? its a blessin to be loved.. treasure him.. hold him tight.. why juz coz of a decision u've made and make someone broken hearted.. u loved him.. u can continuin lovin him.. feelins mite fade.. but dey mite come back too.. hu noes? but when u said no, everythgs put to a stop.. feelins continues to fade.. his heart continues to break.. and its aint gonna be patched back.. feelin wont ever come back again..

lalas. went out wif dewi today.

gees. pei her go buy shoes, shirts, skirts. lols.
lalas. cant help it.. rich gurl lorr. x)
hais. but she bully me..
hahas.. dewi, i dun wan say horr.
you noe it urself. x)

hehes. so happy.. lalas..
but, yet im so guilty..
i feel so bad lorr.
so sorry lehhs. you shld noe hu u r and wat bahh. =s
SORRY. =((

am i wrong in der 1st place?
we were best frens.
since when did things became lidat?
i duno..

lalas.

last day of der term lerr. gees.
got back my PPR.
results were reali unexpected.
i passed all eh? miracle.. lols.

after skool went J8 wif jesse, sze, mp, tze, py.
lalas. it was reali fun larr.
lots of laughter thru out ehh. gees.
and thnks gurls. muackks. x))
im simply 'high' gees.

i simply lurfe life now.
lurfe ya gurls. =)) gees.

Oh God. How can he win? Fark it. DAMN IT.
Kelly should win eh? fark.
DAMN DAT KELVIN AND HIS FANS.
unfair world.

*yawns.

so tired lorr. woke up at 830.
went amk polyclinic for body checkup.
wif sze, jesse, pohee, glad, mp, myra, jas.wee.
lalas. sooooo many ppl lorrs. sian 1/2.

and der service is so poor.
poor sze need to do blood test.
hais. i heartache.. lols.

den went town lorrs.
hmmm. had lunch and walked around.

and i duno wat to say ehh.
im happy. im VERY HAPPY~
lalas. nahh. im goin crazy lerr.=p

hais. it was close.
but it still didnt happen in de end.
mayb it isnt fated. =(

Cuz, you are only almost here..